so won't you flyyy with me?

Please?

the first hour of his birthday, and tears are flooding down my face.

how could it be that just 1 year ago, everything was so perfect? I made a scrapbook so that he could take a walk down memory lane of his past few years, but somehow along the way I got dragged into the memories of every picture. and it.. hurts.

somehow ever since that day, I’ve been constantly reminded/ getting hints that.. it really is a fact, and not just something I was worried about. I know I said I’d always wish him well, and I think I actually might, but it really just kills me to know that he’s moved on, even though it’s something I wanted, it’s also something that I really, really don’t want.

been crying so much in the past few days that I feel like I’m going through the whole breakup again :( is this love? or is it just my stupid possessiveness acting up? somehow, I’m really afraid that it’s the former- and if it is, it really has got to stop. to save myself from anymore hurt, I can just see it happening again in the future.

anyway, it’s late, and I’m still not done with the scrapbook that I’ve been piecing together since… idk when. I hope it turns out okay :/ gonna get back to it now!!:/

$@*#^!(*@$)!(*&#@ it’ll stop once I get back to Brissy.

I know it will. Everything fades in time, right?

Till then,

I always have to keep this in mind-

“Not my will, but Yours be done.”

:( still can’t get over what you said two days ago.

Dear God, please help me :( it shouldn’t be affecting me so much.

I thought I was over, but maybe..

It’ll really just take alot longer than I expected it to.

Remember, our promises about forever?